ENUFF REDIRECTING.

listening to ‘Maafkan Kami’, i was thinking if i were to have the time to seek forgiveness from everyone who i had done wrong to before.
it’s the time limit we never do realize.
it’s the person who we love nor our frenemies that we are asking apologize.
do we ever think of even the tiniest lil’ thing we’ve ever done?
realizing the risks. realizing the effects on us.

after the terrible days that had been going on since last week, things had turned upside down.
it has been arranged by Allah SWT that fate IS going to be that way.
i’m sorry. i just lost myself the art of writing, the art of understanding the blogosphere since i had really been on hiatus.
hiatus that gives the meaning of i really wanted to disappear from here.
really, i do.

i knew what have you been hiding from me.
definitely, i am letting myself go from your sight.
i ain’t escaping, but if you are, you better stand out for yourself before i find you.
you know what i am capable of.
you think the internet is your slaves?
you are your own master manipulating others?
i tell you, you can’t hide nor can you run away.
i found you all over. it’s just the time that i had to wait.

proves and alibies i kept and made me fool over myself.
mistakes taken as lessons, but you make it as your pleasure.

i can’t keep the pressure anymore.
whether the sign was there before, but i was too blind to see it.
or was it a quick and remote rumbles that forces me to act fast, but i just couldn’t.
i was numb. yes, the right word, numb and perfectly stupid.
just don’t leave me without clues.

i spared my time not thinking.
but in other word, wasting the ticking of the minutes and hours passing by recalling the bad lucks i had gone through, and so i concluded that those were the signs of Lucifer.
the games i played were not-that merciful.
but i had to be tough, as what they see in me.
i know i am.

i can’t blab anymore. no right and truthful words are constantly coming out of my head.
they just got blended with the thoughts and minds that keep pouring out.
i’ll stop. for now.

just wait for the next post yeah.